Wednesday 30 September 2009

twilight quotes

Don't we just love the books of Twilight series??? How much the movie??? There could be lot of interpretation to this but what I love the most is the love between Edward and Bella. Here are some quotes from them let your heart decide. hahaha ka korny ui


Before you, Bella, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars, points of light and reason. ….And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn’t see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything.



Our relationship couldn’t continue to balance, as it did, on the point of a knife. We would fall off one edge or the other, depending entirely upon his decision, or his instincts. My decision was made, made before I’d ever consciously chosen, and I was committed to seeing it through. Because there was nothing more terrifying to me, more excruciating, than the thought of turning away from him. It was an impossibility.



About three things I was absolutely positive. First, Edward was a vampire. Second, there was a part of him-and I didn’t know how potent that part might be-that thirsted for my blood. And third, I was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him. –Bella Swan




+MY TWILIGHT+





Tuesday 29 September 2009

My quote that everyone in facebook obviously loved and one of my friends Krista Kaule could relate toit so she copied it posted it on her facebook as shoutout.. hahahha...obviously everyone had a taste of bitterness in their lives that my quote caught their attention....


the truth hurts coz it opens the scars made of lies but you need to accept it so you can truly move on........

Monday 28 September 2009

‘Ondoy’ leaves 106 dead and missing

‘Ondoy’ leaves 106 dead and missing

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this weeks tarot card

You continue to evolve. A new attitude has brought new relationships and the heavens definitely support this change. The part of your nature that loves to learn is enthralled by your new revelations, so enjoy learning and growing; it's in your stars.



There could be a struggle between reality and illusion on Monday. This struggle temporarily confuses or baffles your senses as you ask a friendly universe a simple question. Is someone deceiving me, or am I deceiving myself? This is a card of illusion, disillusion, and sometime downright disappointment.



Wrapped in the guise of sensationalism, Tuesday could bring news that broadens the boundaries of your present world. Whether part of a job assignment or a personal issue that erupts suddenly in the form of world shaking news, it gives you the opportunity to take a trip away from familiar shores.




Be careful of a ruse that could put you in the position of the legendary Emperor who found himself without clothes due to inability to ask questions. A true leader asks about that which he doesn't understand. Wednesday finds you more vulnerable to flattery than you like to admit and possibly you avoid asking the right questions.




Just as the card depicts a lion as its symbol, you draw on all your own inner Strength and take on the fearlessness of the jungle cat. Thursday you could be tested and any attempt at dominating you is quelled. Someone is in for a shock as you call upon your inner resources.





There is nothing casual about the Death card appearing on Friday; it's a call to be lifted another step up the ladder of life's career accomplishments or intimate relationships. The day may end as a playful exchange of experiences or an ongoing guessing game between you and your partner, but there is no question you are at a new threshold.




Do you know a woman who seems to achieve anything she sets out to do? The High Priestess has that same deep and mysterious talent and it is enviable. On Saturday you could have an encounter with just such a person and you are encouraged to remember your own long-lost latent talents.





Life does get complicated on occasion and Sunday might be just one of those times. Feelings are deepening between two of you and yet another love tugs at your heartstrings and you want to hang on to the feeling. When The Lovers is drawn, old feelings can be ignited at any time and your lover knows that.




Thursday 24 September 2009







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September 24 2009
You are tearing off the chains that bind you and breaking free. Self-awareness is the greatest gift, but it is also the heaviest burden. Recognize this and carry only what you can handle. The key is not breaking free; it's making life work for you and all the effort you put into it.



cancer on love

For Cancer natives, today provides an opportunity to show the areas where you may be tightening or closing down around love. All of us struggle with personal issues, but you may be inadvertently blocking it from coming into your life. Looking into this a little more deeply will help you remove any

cancer on carrier

You seem to be very busy researching and writing this week. You may have deadlines for reports and articles, or you may be busy with administrative duties and paperwork. The pressure is on but thankfully not for much longer. Mercury continues to be retrograde, so this is an excellent time to get your office system sorted out and streamline it. Get rid of any backlog and clear your desk - you will feel so much more creative as a result.





My very own tarot card reading from Horoscope.com

Monday to Sunday reading: This is soooo true from, today is thursday and let's see what happens tomorrow and the rest of the week. I'm particularly excited on friday and saturday what does this mean a skeleton in my closet??? hahahha and I dont want to fall into the same web??? take note on saturday someone from the past? Hhmmpp...damn I just don´t know which one of them hahahha...kidding... And sunday mmmpp sooo true I miss home but I'm not sure where exactly that is. In my heart home is where my kids are. Thats my home sweet home. No matter where in the world we will be placed my heart knows home is where love exist. Charot... hahahhaha....true true and true diba?


The Fool is literally living on the edge and unmindful of impending danger. On Monday you too may be impatient to begin a new adventure and oblivious to what could be a threatening event, whether financial or emotional. Although your adventure is a new beginning, there could be an ending attached.






The Death card symbolizes endings and new beginnings at times with the speed of a lightening bolt. Tuesday new opportunities are on the horizon but it is hard to put away the remnants of the past. Many changes take place within the space of three to six hours and a new direction emerges.








The proverbial spoonful of sugar helps the medicine go down on Wednesday. When the Temperance card appears there is the need for agreement and someone may have to swallow their pride in order to keep the peace. Temperance has a kind and loving nature and attempts to build a bridge over the waters of discord.









Thursday you could bump into a no-nonsense lady who makes you take some time and ponder. Is this Justice appearing as a guide and reminding you that being wishy-washy will not get you to your goal? There could be a struggle with an authority figure before this dilemma is resolved.









There could be a decision made on Friday. A sexy skeleton danced out of your closet and you enjoyed the reunion, but you don't want to fall into the same web that entangled you in the past. A misunderstanding may still be smoldering within you but change has taken place at a very deep level and you get past it all.


The weekend gets a flying start when on Saturday the hint of a new relationship is in the air. It could be someone from the past, or you get the feeling that a past experience is about to be replayed wearing a new face. This new person adds another dimension of worldliness to your life without you leaving home.

The Chariot is a symbol of transportation. It could take you from a place of discord to a place of safety. Hymns are sung that remind us of the chariot that takes you home. The question might be "where is home?" When this card is drawn you are longing for a place of harmony and happiness.








My love tarot reading:
Some people eye everything greedily. They never have enough. The Temperance card tells you to pause and enjoy simple pleasures as the potential to enjoy a pleasant relationship exists now. It is rare to find a union that is so easy that there aren't any dark and dreary sets of histories and no problems in the present. You get closer than you have ever been. In this light, why complicate it?





My fortune cookie of the day

Look in the mirror without admiring your reflection.

darn right... hmmpp!!!!

and another one...hhmmm
Be at peace with yourself.

The third fortune cookie

Take care of yourself first. Then help others.

I can´t get over this why is this true why? Why? Why?

And i´ll get me another one and it says:

It may be difficult, but it will be worth it in the end.


omg...god has his ways of communicating with me it might be through horoscope.com but darn im in teary eye now.

Don't wait for success to come - go find it!

Work with your destiny. Stop trying to outrun it.

Someone thinks the world of you.

Seek out a new environment if you're stuck in a rut.

Face the truth with dignity.

Stop letting other people stand in your way.

You will do well to advance your career.

Happiness may be right under your nose.


Okey 12 fortune cookies, i'm glad it's online or else I will be full right now hehehe...well this is God talking to me through fortune cookies. I prayed today befoe leaving my boarding house that God will give me a sign. After yesterday of wmotional struggling of what I want in my life and where I should go and asking him to guide me to where I belong. This is what I get. I was late for work, but on my way here I had a nice trip on the bus. And as soon as I sat by my desk opened my pc, I had typed horoscope.com where did that come from? I really don't know. It just came into my mind. So here I am tsking note of everything.....

Asking myself am I being too stupid right now? Hoping for something that I am not certain of? Hoping that this thing I have inside my heart for that person is what they call LOVE, am I wasting my time waiting for it to happen or am I just not ready to let it go? And if that is the fact then when will I be? Should I leave it all to time? Or do I really believe time heals everything? Is this the thrill of it all the reason we get up in the morning? Because we still have things left undone, unsaid and unfinished? Well I have the urge to run away right now which I am fighting so hard. I always do this run away and just leave it all to fate. Hoping it will solved itself. Some say this is the wrong way to deal with it all. But this is who I am I turn away and hoping that all the things that have caused pain and uncertainty for me will go away on its on. Sometimes it helps sometimes past has a way of snicking in the back and bite me in the ass. But these are the things that comes along for making decisions there are always circumstances in every decision we make and I have lived 24 years in this material world of ours to know better. After all the things I've gone through I should be better in making decisions but I'm not sometimes I am. I am independent and I am responsible. I don't blame anyone for my mistakes these are the characters that I am personally proud of. And I am blessed I believe that with all my heart that in my life the biggest guidance I have received is from above. So here I am again asking for it. Where do I go? Where does this lead me? What choices do I have left? How can I be a better person, a better mom a better daughter? How can I improve my life? Where do I find real happiness and joy? Life has so much to offer, how can I grab the right opportunities that will suite me and my kids?


MOYA

Tuesday 22 September 2009

THE QUOTES

I love you. I am who I am because of you. You are every reason, every hope, and every dream I've ever had, and no matter what happens to us in the future, everyday we are together is the greatest day of my life. I will always be yours.

- From The Notebook

"I'm scared of everything. I'm scared of what I saw. I'm scared of what I did, of who I am. And most of all... I'm scared of walking out of this room and never feeling the rest of my whole life, the way I feel when I'm with you."

- "Baby" Dirty Dancing

The best love is the kind that weakens the soul, that makes us reach for more, that plants fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds. And that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever.

- The Notebook (best movie EVER)I'm dishonest, and a dishonest man you can always trust to be dishonest... Honestly. It's the honest ones you want to watch out for, because you can never predict when they're going to do something incredibly... stupid.

- Captain Jack Sparrow (Pirates of the Caribbean)

Sometimes i wish that i had never met you, so i could go to sleep at night not knowing there was someone like you out there.

- Good Will Hunting

Poets often describe love as an emotion that we can't control, one that overwhelms logic and common sense. Thats what it's like for me. I didn't plan on falling in love with you, and I doubt that you planned on falling in love with me. But once we met, it was clear that neither of us could control what was happening to us. We fell in love, despite our differences, and once we did, something rare and beautiful was created. For me love like that has happened only once, and thats why every minute we spent together has been seared in my memory. I'll never forget a single moment of it.

- The Notebook, Nicholas Sparks

I guarantee that we'll have tough times. I guarantee that sooner or later one, or both of us will want to get out. But I also guarantee that if I dont ask you to be mine, I'll regret it for the rest of my life.. because I know in my heart you're the only one for me.

- Runaway Bride

I am nothing special, of this I am sure. I am a common man with common thoughts and I’ve led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten, but I’ve loved another with all my heart and soul, and to me, this has always been enough.

- Noah in The Notebook

that thing, that moment, when everything around you becomes hazy.. and the only thing in focus is you and this person..and you realise that that person is the only person you should be kissing for the rest of your life.. and for one moment you get this amazing gift.. and you wanna laugh and you wanna cry cuz you feel so lucky that you found it and so so scared that its all gonna go away all at the same time.

- Drew barrymore in never been kissed

So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day.

- The Notebook

They didn't agree on much
In fact, they rarely agreed on everything
They fought all the time
And they challenged each other everyday
But despite their differences,
They had one important thing in common
They were crazy about each other

- The Notebook


Love cannot be found where it doesn't exist, nor can it be hidden where it truly does.

- David Schwimmer, in the movie "kissing a fool"

Summer romances begin for all kinds of reasons, but when all is said and done, they have one thing in common. They are shooting stars, spectacular moments of light from heavens, a fleeting glimpse of eternity and in a flash there gone

- "Noah" The Noteboook

i didnt come back to tell you that i cant live without you.
i can live without you.
i just dont want to.

- jennifer aniston - rumour has it

" You are the answer to every prayer I've offered. You are a song, a dream, a whisper, and I don't know how I could live without you for as long as I have. I love you, more than you can ever imagine. I always have, and i always will."

- the notebook

I couldn't sleep last night because I know that it's over between us. I'm not bitter any more, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me

- Noah "The Notebook"

There is a place
You can touch a woman
That will drive her crazy.

Her heart.

- From "Milk Money", starring Melanie Griffith

Every story has an end, but in life every ending is just a new begining.

- Uptown Girls

Love is passion. Obsession. Someone you can't live without. Someone you fall head over heels for. Find someone you can love like crazy, and will love you the same way back. Listen to your heart. No sense in life without this. To make the journey without falling deeply in love, you haven't lived a life at all. You have to try, because if you haven't tried, then you haven't lived

- Meet Joe Black


"Lots of girls show their beauty because they want the world to see it --
but others try to hide it so he will look for something more..."

- -The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants

That's the thing, she's my other half. She's everything that I'm not. Without her, I'm not whole. Before I met her I'd be walking through life thinking I was happy, that I was complete---but now I can't back to just being me because now I know what it's like to be whole.

- Ashton Kutcher - Guess Who 2005

"You know what's wrong with you, Miss Whoever-you-are? You're chicken, you've got no guts. You're afraid to stick out your chin and say, "Okay, life's a fact, people do fall in love, people do belong to eachother, because that's the only chance anybody's got for real happiness." You call yourself a free spirit, a "wild thing," and you're terrified somebody's gonna stick you in a cage. Well baby, you're already in that cage. You built it yourself. And it's not bounded in the west by Tulip, Texas, or in the east by Somali-land. It's wherever you go. Because no matter where you run, you just end up running into yourself."

- Breakfast at tiffany's

Heres to lying, stealing, cheating, and drinking.
If you must lie, lie with the one you love.
If you must steal, steal away from bad company.
If you must cheat, cheat death.
And if you drink, drink to the moments that take your breath away.

- Hitch(Jaime)


Love is an accident waiting to happen, Desire is a stranger you think you know, Intimacy is a lie we tell ourselves, Truth is a game we play to win, Those who believe in love at first sight never stop looking.

- From 'Closer' '*Chelsie*

"They say, when you meet the love of your life, time stops, and that's true. What they don't tell you is that when it starts again, it moves extra fast to catch up."

- Big Fish

How do you pick up the threads of an old life? How do you go on? When in your heart, you begin to understand, there is no going back. There are some things that time cannot mend, some hurts that go too deep... that have taken hold...

- Frodo Baggins, The Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King

"When a woman who has much to say says nothing, her silence can be deafening."

- - King Mongkut from `Anna and the King'

"I would rather have had one breath of her hair, one kiss from her mouth, one touch of her hand, than eternity without it"

- nicholas cage - city of angels

"You are the answer to every prayer I've offered. You are a song, a dream, a whisper, and I don't know how I could have lived without you for as long as I have. I love you, more than you can ever imagine. I always have, and I always will."

- Noah, in "The Notebook"

Some birds aren't meant to be caged. Their feathers are just too bright. And when they fly away, the part of you that knows it was a sin to lock them up does rejoice. But still, the place you live in is that much more drab and empty that they're gone. I guess I just miss my friend.

- Morgan Freeman (The Shawshank Redemption)

do you ever wish that sometimes you could freezeframe a moment in your day look at it and say 'this is not my life.'?

- Daniel Hillard (Robin Williams in Mrs. Doubtfire)

You want a man who will lead you down the beach with his hand over your eyes just so you can discover the feel of sand under your feet. You want a guy that will wake you up ay dawn just bursting to talk to you. Can't wait another minute to just to find out what you'll say. Am I right?

- Ike- Runaway Bride

When life makes you have to put up with mean and hateful people, think of them as sandpaper. They may scratch you, rub you the wrong way, but eventually you end up smooth and polished...and the sandpaper...its just gonna be worn out and ugly

- The Fighting Temptations Movie

"Miracles,no matter how inexplicable or unbelieveable, are real and can occur without regard to the natural order of things"

- The Notebook

Find someone who you can love like crazy and who'll love you the same way back. You have to try, because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived."

- meet joe black


"Because you're hoping you're wrong. And every time he does something that tells you he's no good, you ignore it. And every time he comes through and suprises you, he wins you over, and you lose that argument with yourself, that he's not for you."

- the holiday

We fell in love... despite our differences, and once we did, something rare and beautiful was created. For me... love like t h a t has happened only once, annd thats why every
minute we spent 2gethr has been seared in my memory ill never forget a single moment

- the notebook

Oh give me a man who is man enough to give himself just to the woman who is worth him. If that woman were me I would love him alone and forever.

- Francesca Bruni from the movie Casanova


So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What's it look like? If it's with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again. If I thought that's what you really wanted. But don't you take the easy way out.

- Noah, The Notebook

To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering one must not love. But then one suffers from not loving. Therefore to love is to suffer, not to love is to suffer. To suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love. To be happy then is to suffer. But suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore, to be unhappy one must love, or love to suffer, or suffer from too much happiness. I hope you're getting this down

- Love and Death

Girls flirt with the dangerous guy, they don't bring him home. They marry the good guy, the one that sticks around.

- Dr. Jean Gray in X2

Some wounds are too deep or close to the bone, no matter how hard u work at it....u just cant stop the bleeding.

- Million Dollar Baby

Everyone aks why I started at the end and worked back to the beginning. The reason is simple. I couldn't understand the beginning 'till I reached the end.

- White Oleander



We fell in love... despite our differences, and once we did, something rare and beautiful was created. For me... love like t h a t has happened only once, annd thats why every
minute we spent 2gethr has been seared in my memory ill never forget a single moment

- the notebook

Why are you being so hypocritical? You're the one who walks around saying screw the world because its easier that having to feel anything!

- Sisterhood Of The Travelling Pants


The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best
of everything they just make the most of everything that comes
along their way.


"When one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one that has opened for us."

"You can close your eyes to things you don't
want to see, but you can't close your heart to
the things you don't want to feel."


You've got to take the good with the bad, smile with the sad, love what you've got, and remember what you had. Always forgive, but never forget. Learn from mistakes, but never regret.

- Unknown

"Beginnings are usually scary and endings are usually sad, but it's everything in between that makes it all worth living."

- Sandra Bullock in "Hope Floats"


I love you. I am who I am because of you. You are every reason, every hope, and every dream I've ever had, and no matter what happens to us in the future, everyday we are together is the greatest day of my life. I will always be yours.

- From The Notebook

I guarantee there will be tough times. I guarantee at some point in time either one or both of us will want out of this. But I also guarantee, that if I don't ask you to be mine, I will regret it for the rest of my life. Because in my heart I know you're the only one for me...

- Ike and Maggie, Runaway Bride

"The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds. And that's what you've given me. That's what I'd hoped to give you forever."

- The Notebook

So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What's it look like? If it's with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again. If I thought that's what you really wanted. But don't you take the easy way out.

- Noah, The Notebook

So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What's it look like? If it's with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again. If I thought that's what you really wanted. But don't you take the easy way out.

- Noah, The Notebook

To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering one must not love. But then one suffers from not loving. Therefore to love is to suffer, not to love is to suffer. To suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love. To be happy then is to suffer. But suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore, to be unhappy one must love, or love to suffer, or suffer from too much happiness. I hope you're getting this down

- Love and Death

When you fall in love, it is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake, and then it subsides. And when it subsides, you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots are become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the desire to mate every second of the day. It is not lying awake at night imagining that he is kissing every part of your body. No... don't blush. I am telling you some truths. For that is just being in love; which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over, when being in love has burned away. Doesn't sound very exciting, does it? But it is!

- Iannis - Captain Corelli's Mandolin

Take love, multiply it by infinity and takes it to the depths of forever...and you still have only a glimpse of how I feel for you

- Meet Joe Black

"Loneliness is the human condition. No one is ever going to fill that space. The best you can do is know yourself... know what you want."

Everyone aks why I started at the end and worked back to the beginning. The reason is simple. I couldn't understand the beginning 'till I reached the end.


We fell in love... despite our differences, and once we did, something rare and beautiful was created. For me... love like t h a t has happened only once, annd thats why every
minute we spent 2gethr has been seared in my memory ill never forget a single moment

- the notebook

"Because you're hoping you're wrong. And every time he does something that tells you he's no good, you ignore it. And every time he comes through and suprises you, he wins you over, and you lose that argument with yourself, that he's not for you."

You know when I said I knew little about love? That wasn't true. I know a lot about love. I've seen it, centuries and centuries of it, and it was the only thing that made watching your world bearable. All those wars. Pain, lies, hate... It made me want to turn away and never look down again. But when I see the way that mankind loves... You could search to the furthest reaches of the universe and never find anything more beautiful. So yes, I know that love is unconditional. But I also know that it can be unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable and strangely easy to mistake for loathing, and... What I'm trying to say, Tristan is... I think I love you. Is this love, Tristan? I never imagined I'd know it for myself. My heart... It feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it's trying to escape because it doesn't belong to me anymore. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I'd wish for nothing in exchange - no gifts. No goods. No demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine.

- Yvaine (Claire Danes) in Stardust

We're all looking for reasons and people to blame for our unhappiness, reasons why we don't deserve to be loved.

- from the movie: You Are The One

There are some things that are nothing more than what they are,they're not meant to last.they just take their place in your heart and make you a little smarter the next time.

It is strange to think, I haven't seen you since a month. I have seen the new moon, but not you. I have seen sunsets and sunrises, but nothing of your beautiful face. The pieces of my broken heart are so small that they could be passed through the eye of a needle. I miss you like the sun misses the flower; like the sun misses the flower in the depths of winter. Instead of beauty to direct its light to, the heart hardens like the frozen world your absence has banished me to. I next compete in the city of Paris, I will find it empty and in the winter if you are not there. Hope guides me, that is what gets me through the day and the night. The hope that after you're gone from my sight, it will not be the last time that I look upon you.

- A Knight's Tale

We all grow up someday, we might as well know what we want.

You cannot leave everything to Fate. She's got a lot to do. Sometimes you must give her a hand.

- Ever After

you can't lose something you never had.

- how to lose a guy in ten days

When you're a teenager you think you can do anything, and you do. Your twenties are a blur. Your thirties, you raise your family, you make a little money and you think to yourself, "What happened to my twenties?" Your forties, you grow a little pot belly you grow another chin. The music starts to get too loud and one of your old girlfriends from high school becomes a grandmother. Your fifties you have a minor surgery. You'll call it a procedure, but it's a surgery. Your sixties you have a major surgery, the music is still loud but it doesn't matter because you can't hear it anyway. Seventies, you and the wife retire to Fort Lauderdale, you start eating dinner at two, lunch around ten, breakfast the night before. And you spend most of your time wandering around malls looking for the ultimate in soft yogurt and muttering "how come the kids don't call?" By your eighties, you've had a major stroke, and you end up babbling to some Jamaican nurse who your wife can't stand but who you call mama. Any questions?

- Mitch Robbins (City Slickers)

Some Fairy tales are real, but most are just stories we make up to deal with our pathetic lives.

- ''dakota fanning'' (uptown girls)

life moves pretty fast. if you don't stop and look around every once in a while, you could miss it.

- ferris bueller's day off
Lord give the strength to go on today. Help me achieve what is in my heart. I have no fighting spirit for my work I hate sitting here in front of my pc 7 hours a day, calling people and convincing them to invest in something so stupid as a homepage worth thousand of danish kroner.I just feel like my life is such a waste sitting here. Not earning enough for my needs and for my familys needs. I might sound selfish and unthankful right now, but I feel I need to be out there doing something else. This is just not my line, this is not me. Lord help me find my way to success help me achieve what my heart desires,my expences here are double up than what I have when I am in Davao. Imagine this I have to send money to provide for my kids that would be the electricity the food the water the milk and the tuition fee. While im here in Manila I would have to pay for the rent food and transportation. In my case thats a lot for a small salary. Well I have been lucky enough to have a salary bigger than what other callcenters offer here in Philippines. At the same time I am far away from my kids. Of course I can bring my kids to Manila so the budget would be one for me and my kids. But then I have to find a house for us to live and school for my eldest daughter and of course a maid I can trust while I'm at work. Doesn't seem to sound stupid this solution to my problem. One thing is darn hard to do the palnning is the money to start the plan. I like my life is such a challenge right now. I am thankful that God has never abandoned me. I am thankful that I have a grandmother who is healthy still to take care of my kids while I'm working here in Manila. I am thankful that my mom once in awhile helps me financially. It is a relief. But What my heart desires is far from the life I am living right now. And No i wish not to have a life full of material things. I just wanna be able to be with my kids at the same time and be able to have a job where I can help people.
the things unnoticed are the things you need the most. where do I begin. I have never even imagined myself being in this situation well I must say that I leave it all to the faith I have in God. he knows best and that I can assure myself with that. I have heard few advices from closest friend. Some of them were really touching and true some hurts to hear but that I needed also. So here I am ready to take the step. Thats in fact what I have done 3 weeks ago. just ride it all out. the pain the change and the surprises it all brigns with it. At times I feel like I want to give it all up for nothing but I had friends who were there to support me and get me back on track. That is one of the blessings as well... that i truly honestly appreciate.I am now gone to the point of letting go. Starts where I should forgive myself for the thigns that I have made, the wrong decisions that I have made. And I have to love myself to be able to love another and to be able to recieve more blessings in my life. I have to forgive others for the pain that they have caused. I have to realize to acknowledge the things that have happened. I need to reconcile with myself. make changes and stick to it. first my lifestyle, even if it means turning back on some friends then let it be. If it means sacrifices then let it be. if that leads me to a better and more constractive life then let it be it. this is the my moment of truth. Ive been slapped by reality now its time to wake up.

i believe all good things happen to people because they mindset themselves to it. No one can go back and make a brand new start, however anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending."

p.s.

it's not up to me anymore if you really want me to be in your life you'll find a way to put me there....

Monday 21 September 2009

The times we've shared are precious to me they still are. And I haven't regret anything from it. I learned and I have been happy for the given time we've had. I cannot say that we met at the wrong time. because I dont believe that, we met because we had to learn things from each other. All the pains laughters and joy we've been through are the things we need to experience. I have always known the risks that comes along choosing to be with you so for that I can say I wasnt surprise. I will love you till the end of time and I will understand I will be patiently waiting until I cant no more. In time you'll grow and In time I'll learn to love myself. And if fate allows it we will meet again and we will be ready to be together if fate has something else planned for us then let it be it. I just want to let you know I believe in you I believe that life has more to offer to you and I believe that your hope and dreams will become reality for you someday. I will pray for you each and every single day. That you will find happiness in your life that you truly deserve. even if your path wouldnt lead to mine i will be happy for you. I still hope though that we could be good friends and that there would be no hesitations because of our past. I want you to know I am not mad I am not bitter of the things that has caused our ending. I am happy in fact it happened coz there I knew and realized that i must have loved with you all this time.
I will say my goodbye now and I wish you all the best till the next time we will meet again i wish to see you smile. mwah mwah mwah....


quotes of the day:


We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.


I can't promise to solve all your problems, but I can promise you won't have to face them alone...

my prayer for today

Lord enlighten what is dark in me strengthen what is weak in me mend what is broken in me, bind what is bruised in me, hela what is sick in me straighten what is crooked in me and revive whatever love and peace have died in me. AMEN..

MY SWEET ESCAPE -THE productive weekend-

Weekend were spend with one of my closest friend Miss A. We went to this amazing rally of Forever Living. I've heard the most amazing stories from those who have been working for this company. It was so amazing. On sunday I joined the couple to church in makati. It was very amazing too. After the preaching we prayed and if I just knew i would cry my eyes out I would have brought a towel with me. The highlight of my sunday was I was able to get to talk to my kids thorugh my cousins cp. When I got home the crying continued, it was a relief though I had to get it out someday somehow i guees this was the time for it.

Friday 18 September 2009

A sad day..which means I´m so tired and sick. I wanna go home to Davao. I´m missing my kids eveyr second.


“A wise man once said you can have anything in life if you will sacrifice everything else for it. What he meant is nothing comes without a price. So before you go into battle, you better decide how much you’re willing to lose. Too often, going after what feels good means letting go of what you know is right, and letting someone in means abandoning the walls you’ve spent a lifetime building. Of course, the toughest sacrifices are the ones we don’t see coming, when we don’t have time to come up with a strategy to pick a side or to measure the potential loss. When that happens, when the battle chooses us and not the other way around, that’s when the sacrifice can turn out to be more than we can bear.”
“What’s worse, new wounds which are so horribly painful or old wounds that should’ve healed years ago and never did? Maybe our old wounds teach us something. They remind us where we’ve been and what we’ve overcome. They teach us lessons about what to avoid in the future. That’s what we like to think. But that’s not the way it is, is it? Some things we just have to learn over and over and over again.”

Thursday 17 September 2009

MY SWEET ESCAPE -THE MESSAGE-

its day of madness...had a fever last night and so i slept early, after having 2 cops of green tea with lemon, When I woke up this morning i recieved an invitation from a dear old friend of mine, inviting me to a reunion of childhood friends from km5 buhangin, I was so excited to tell her that I´m in Manila coz as she mentioned in her text she was here too and will be going home to davao either november or early december and it would be a really fun to have this reunion cause most of our childhood friends will definately be coming home to have christmas with their family. So we texted and texted about it, I have recieved vcards from her numbers of our childhood friends that she still has contact with. And I was thrilled....anyways the invi goes liek these..

Hello mga botete, its atits i'd like to invite you to join reunion of botetes this december please bring your own botete hahaha..what i mean is if you have kids and hubbies oh hubby pala or boylet/boytoy please bring them along we will meet at samal in our resort for a cool and fun botete catching adventure. please inform me on my facebook or this number if you are joining,,, we will find an exact date together those for you who wants to join please add dates on december that is best for you.. best regards Atits the palaka..

well we got into texting and she asked me when I will be back in davao and so on..until my inbox was full so i automatically just deleted everything there..well thats okey coz i have her number saved already in my phonebook. Well as I relplied her about botetelets chikas..as I explained to her why I was suddenly in manila and working here when I actually assured her that I will apply for Southernland company in Davao. And as I looked for her number on my phone I accidentally pushed send message and then it was sent to At*** instead and well what you think happened after that? hhmmpp..a reply of course from one I didnt want to hear from. So as a reaction I dropped my phone or rather threw my phone across the room (lucky me it hit the pillow first and then bounced to the wall...)

Well then there it goes again the things that shouldnt be said is said again well.. I was in bed still feeling awful, chose to ignore the text messages sent from him. I actually fell asleep and woke from a miss call when I looked at the time on my cp it was already 1 pm so i hurried up took my bag and went out. I had to get something to eat first. The weather was awful for soemone who have a fever, it was really hot warm and very uncomfortable then getting on an airconditioned bus didnt made any better. I was sweating at the same time freezing. But i thought I don't wanna go home I wanna fight this so i carried on, took another bus from Coastal Main Road. While I was in the bus I fell asleep and guess what I missed my stop. So I had to walk all the way back to the where I was gonna take my 3rd bus. Well it all went well by the way. So here I am in our iffice feeling I dont know what. Just finished my 2nd cop of tea with honey and I feel sleepy took flanx which obviously made me sleepy. So now doing something I shouldn't do writing on my blog. huhuhu...

well That was so far how my sweet escape went. Better Luck tomorrow.

QUOTES OF THE DAY

I didn't ask for it to be over, but then again, I never asked for it to begin. For that's the way it is with life, as some of the most beautiful days come completely by chance. But even the most beautiful days eventually have their sunsets

-ME-

I wanted a perfect ending, now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next. Delicious amiguity.
-Gilda Radner

I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.
-Marilyn Monroe

MY SWEET ESCAPE -THE THRILL-

today i daydreamed of beach and sunny weather. Might be becoz I was freezing in our office and with a fever. I thought hhmm pictures of a white sand beaches might help to get backl in the mood for calling and booking. well i've got to realize life´s all about natural highs, when you feel the same you feel the sand between your toes. when your favorite song comes on the radio or you hear someones voice that you hadn't heard in forever. lifes about those snowy nights in front of the fire with a huge cup of hot cocoa. or sitting on your front lawn, watching fireworks on a hot summer night. lifes about going to parties with friends, or spending time with the loved ones. lifes about going to the pool and cooling off, or bundling up and playing in the snow. lifes about seeing people you haven't seen forever, or seeing that one person you love everyday.

these are the things i miss..hhmmm...i think im being tipsy from 2 500mg flanax hooo....

Wednesday 16 September 2009

My Sweet Escape-my sweet goodbye-

I'm sorry to have to say this but I'm giving up on you,I don't believe in you anymore, I never really thought that would happen but you've proved your never gonna change. So have a nice life please don't ever come back to me.

My Sweet Escape-livign life-

Live your life as best you can. Never give up hope. With each breath you take remember what matters most. Live with no regrets and always forgive. You never know which day might be your last, if you have something to say, say it NOW! Reach for the stars, and know that they are NEVER too far away. Dreams CAN become reality but only if you take the steps necessary for that to happen.
Never be afraid of life, smile through the storm, laugh through the tears and always look for the rainbow.

- me

Monday 14 September 2009

THE JOKES THAT MADE ME THROUGH THE DAY

A mother passing by her daughter's bedroom was astonished to see the bed was nicely made and everything was picked up. Then she saw an envelope propped up prominently on the center of the bed. It was addressed, "Mom." With the worst premonition, she opened the envelope and read the letter with trembling hands:

Dear Mom: It is with great regret and sorrow that I'm writing you. I had to elope with my new boyfriend because I wanted to avoid a scene with Dad and you. I've been finding real passion with Ahmed and he is so nice-even with all his piercings, tattoos, beard, and his motorcycle clothes. But it's not only the passion Mom, I'm pregnant and Ahmed said that we will be very happy. He already owns a trailer in the woods and has a stack of firewood for the whole winter. He wants to have many more children with me and that's now one of my dreams too. Ahmed taught me that marijuana doesn't really hurt anyone and we'll be growing it for us and trading it with his friends for all the cocaine and ecstasy we want. In the meantime, we'll pray that science will find a cure for AIDS so Ahmed can get better; he sure deserves it!! Don't worry Mom, I'm 15 years old now and I know how to take care of myself. Someday I'm sure we'll be back to visit so you can get to know your grand children.

Your daughter, Judith

PS: Mom, none of the above is true. I'm over at the neighbor's house. I just wanted to remind you that there are worse things in life than my report card that's in my desk center drawer. I love you! Call when it is safe for me to come home.

- An e-mail


In case you needed further proof that the human race is doomed to stupidity, here are some actual label instructions on consumer goods:

On a Sears hairdryer -- Do not use while sleeping.
(Shoot, and that's the only time I have to work on my hair.)

On a bag of Fritos -- You could be a winner! No purchase necessary. Details inside.
(the shoplifter special)?

On a bar of Dial soap -- "Directions: Use like regular soap,"
(and that would be how???....)

On some Swanson frozen dinners -- "Serving suggestion: Defrost."
(but, it's "just" a suggestion).

On Tesco's Tiramisu dessert (printed on bottom) -- "Do not turn upside down."
(well...duh, a bit late, huh)!

On Marks & Spencer Bread Pudding -- "Product will be hot after heating."
(...and you thought????...)

On packaging for a Rowena iron -- "Do not iron clothes on body."
(but wouldn't this save me more time)?

On Boot's Children Cough Medicine -- "Do not drive a car or operate machinery after taking this medication."
(We could do a lot to reduce the rate of construction accidents if we could just get those 5-year-olds with head-colds off those forklifts.)

On Nytol Sleep Aid -- "Warning: May cause drowsiness."
(and...I'm taking this because???....)

On most brands of Christmas lights -- "For indoor or outdoor use only."
(as opposed to...what)?

On a Japanese food processor -- "Not to be used for the other use."
(now, somebody out there, help me on this. I'm a bit curious)

On Sainsbury's peanuts -- "Warning: contains nuts."
(talk about a news flash)

On an American Airlines packet of nuts -- "Instructions: Open packet, eat nuts."
(Step 3: maybe, ooh...fly Delta?)

On a child's Superman costume -- "Wearing of this garment does not enable you to fly."
(I don't blame the company. I blame the parents for this one.)

On a Swedish chainsaw -- "Do not attempt to stop chain with your hands or genitals."
(Oh my ..was there a lot of this happening somewhere?)

Now that you've smiled at least once, it's your turn to spread the stupidity.

- *email*

A LOGICAL SOLUTION.
Now here is a problem that finally has a formula for getting to the bottom of an age old problem.
From a strictly mathematical viewpoint it goes like this:

What Makes 100%? What does it mean to give MORE than 100%? Ever wonder about those people who say they are giving more than 100%? We have all been to those meetings where someone wants you to give over 100%. How about achieving 103%? What makes up 100% in life?

Here's a little mathematical formula that might help you answer these questions:

If:
A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z is represented as:
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26.

Then:

H-A-R-D-W-O-R-K
8+1+18+4+23+15+18+11 = 98%
and
K-N-O-W-L-E-D-G-E
11+14+15+23+12+5+4+7+5 = 96%

But,

A-T-T-I-T-U-D-E
1+20+20+9+20+21+4+5 = 100%

And,

B-U-L-L-S-*-*-T
2+21+12+12+19+8+9+20 = 103%

AND, look how far a** kissing will take you.

A-*-*-K-I-S-S-I-N-G
1+19+19+11+9+19+19+9+14+7 = 118%

So, one can conclude with mathematical certainty that While Hard work and Knowledge will get you close, and Attitude will get you there, it's the Bulls**t and A** Kissing that will put you over the top.

- some big organization

15 THINGS TO MAKE YOUR PARENTS THINK YOU'RE INSANE!!
1. Follow them around the house everywhere.
2. Moo when they say your name.
3. Run into walls.
4. Say that wearing clothes is against your religion.
5. Stand over them at four in the morning with a huge grin on your face and say, good morning sunshine
6. Pluck someone's hair out and yell, "DNA"
7. Wear a sticker that says, "I’m a retard"
8. Have 20 imaginary friends that you talk to all the time.
9. In public yell, "No Mom/Dad, I will not make out with you!!"
10. Do what they actually tell you.
11. Jump off the roof, trying to fly.
12. Hold their hand and whisper to them, I see dead people.
13. At everything they say yell, Liar.
14. Try to swim in the floor.
15. Tap on their door all night.


LITTLE TONY FROM BROOKLYN ON MATH

A teacher asks her class, "If there are 5 birds sitting on a fence and you shoot one of them, how many will be left ?" She calls on little TONY.

He replies, "None, they will all fly away with the first gunshot."

The teacher replies, "The correct answer is 4, but I like your thinking."

Then little TONY says, "I have a question for YOU."

"There are 3 women sitting on a bench having ice cream: One is delicately licking the sides of the triple scoop of ice cream. The second is gobbling down the top and sucking the cone. The third is biting off the top of the ice cream. Which one is married ?"

The teacher, blushing a great deal, replied, "Well, I suppose the one that's gobbled down the top and sucked the cone."

To which Little TONY replied, "The correct answer is 'the one with the wedding ring on'," but I like your thinking."


LITTLE TONY ON MATH

Little TONY returns from school and says he got an F in arithmetic.

"Why?" asks the father.

"The teacher asked, 'How much is 2x3,' " I said "6", replies TONY.

"But that's right !" says his dad.

"Yeah, but then she asked me "How much is 3x2 ?"

"What's the f ** king difference ?" asks the father.

"That's what I said !"


LITTLE TONY ON ENGLISH

Little TONY goes to school, and the teacher says, "Today we are going to learn multi-syllable words, class. Does anybody have an example of a multi-syllable word ?"

Little TONY says, "Mas-tur-bate."

Miss Rogers smiles and says, "Wow, little TONY, that's a mouthful."

Little TONY says, "No, Miss Rogers, you're thinking of a blowjob."


LITTLE TONY ON GRAMMAR

Little TONY was sitting in class one day. All of a sudden, he needed to go to the bathroom. He yelled out, "Miss Jones, I need to take a piss !!"

The teacher replied, 'Now, TONY, that is NOT the proper word to use in this situation. The correct word you want to use is 'urinate.'

Please use the word 'ur-i-nate' in a sentence correctly, and I will allow you to go."

Little TONY, thinks for a bit, and then says, "You're an eight, but if you had bigger tits, you'd be a TEN !"


LITTLE TONY ON GRAMMAR

One day, during lessons on proper grammar, the teacher asked for a show of hands from those who could use the word "beautiful" in the same sentence twice.

First, she called on little Suzie, who responded with, "My father bought my mother a beautiful dress and she looked beautiful in it."

"Very good, Suzie," replied the teacher. She then called on little Michael.

"My mommy planned a beautiful banquet and it turned out beautifully."

She said, "Excellent, Michael !"
Then the teacher reluctantly called on little TONY.

"Last night at the dinner table, my sister told my father that she was pregnant, and he said, 'Beautiful, just f ** king beautiful !'"


LITTLE TONY ON GETTING OLDER

Little TONY was sitting on a park bench munching on one candy bar after another.

After the 6th one a man on the bench across from him said, "Son, you know eating all that candy isn't good for you. It will give you acne, rot your teeth, and make you fat."

Little TONY replied, "My grandfather lived to be 107 years old."

The man asked, "Did your grandfather eat 6 candy bars at a time ?"

Little TONY answered, "No, he minded his own f ** king business."


I LOVE Little Tony !!!!!


I never quite figured out why the sexual urges of men and women differ so much.

And I never figured out the whole Venus and Mars thing.

I have never figured out why men think with their head and women think with their heart.

I have never figured out why the sexual desire gene gets thrown into a state of turmoil, when it hears the words "I do."

FOR EXAMPLE: One evening last week, my wife and I were getting into bed. Well, the passion starts to heat up, and she eventually says, "I don't feel like it, I just want you to hold me." I said "WHAT!!! What was that?!" So she says the words that every husband on the planet dreads to hear..."You're just not in touch with my emotional needs as a woman enough for me to satisfy your physical needs as a man." She responded to my puzzled look by saying, "Can't you just love me for who I am and not what I do for you in the bedroom?"

Realizing that nothing was going to happen that night I went to sleep. The very next day I opted to take the day off of work to spend time with her. We went out to a nice lunch and then went shopping at a big, big unnamed department store. I walked around with her while she tried on several different very expensive outfits. She couldn't decide which one to take so I told her we'd just buy them all! She wanted new shoes to compliment her new clothes, so I said lets get a pair for each outfit. We went to the jewelery department where she picked out a pair of diamond earrings. Let me tell you, she was so excited. She must have thought I was one wave short of a shipwreck. I started to think she was testing me because she asked for a tennis bracelet when she doesn't even know how to play tennis. I think I threw her for a loop when I said, "That's fine, honey." She was almost nearing sexual satisfaction from all of the excitement. Smiling with excited anticipation she finally said, "I think this is all dear, lets go to the cashier." I could hardly contain myself when I blurted out, "No honey, I don't feel like it." Her face just went completely blank as her jaw dropped with a baffled, "WHAT??!!!" I then said "Really honey! I just want you to HOLD this stuff for a while. You're just not in touch with my financial needs as a man enough for me to satisfy your shopping needs as a woman." And just when she had this look like she was going to kill me I added, "Why can't you just love me for who I am and not for the things I buy you?"

Apparently I won't be having sex again until sometime after pigs fly over a frozen hell while monkeys fly out her bum.

Tuesday 8 September 2009

*What Does Love Mean?*

A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, "What does love mean?" The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined. See what you think:


"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all even when his hands got arthritis, too. That's Love. Rebecca - age 8

When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth." Billy - age 4

"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other." Karl - age 5

"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French Fries without making them give you any of theirs." Chrissy - age 6

"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired." Terri - age 4

"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK." Danny - age 7

"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss" Emily - age 8

"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen." Bobby - age 7 (Wow!)

"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate." Nikka - age 6

"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it
everyday." Noelle - age 7

"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well." Tommy - age 6

"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore." Cindy - age 8

"My mommy loves me more than anybody. You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night." Clare - age 6

"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken." Elaine-age 5

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford." Chris - age 7

"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day." Mary Ann - age 4

"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old
clothes and has to go out and buy new ones." Lauren - age 4

"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you" Karen - age 7

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross." Mark - age 6

"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget," Jessica - age 8

And the final one -- Author and lecturer Leo Buscaglia once talked about contest he was asked to judge. The purpose of the contest was to find the most caring child. (Now this will melt your heart.) The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife. Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there. When
his Mother asked him what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said, "Nothing, I just helped him cry."

Monday 7 September 2009

Hope

Hope for the moment. There are times when it is hard to believe in the future, when we are temporarily just not brave enough. When this happens, concentrate on the present. Cultivate le petit bonheur (the little happiness) until courage returns. Look forward to the beauty of the next moment, the next hour, the promise of a good meal, sleep, a book, a movie, the likelihood that tonight the stars will shine and tomorrow the sun will shine. Sink roots into the present until the strength grows to think about tomorrow.

ArdisWhitman

Wednesday 2 September 2009

MY SWEET ESCAPE

"I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you. And it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new. And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade."

Bored At work

Well I've already done my score for today 2 bookings (thank you lord). So I gave myself 10min break to dig the internet for cool movie scenes. No matter what.. this is my favorite scene,quote and drama....THE NOTEBOOK ofcourse...I'm so in love with NOah..in Fact I'm so in love with the movie....hahahaha...


Young Noah: It's not about following your heart and it's not about keeping your promises. It's about security.
Young Allie: What's that supposed to mean?
Young Noah: [yelling] Money. He's got a lot of money!
Young Allie: You smug b******. I hate you for saying that.
Young Noah: You're bored Allie. You're bored and you know it. You wouldn't be here if there wasn't something missing.
Young Allie: You arrogant son of a b****.
Young Noah: Would you just stay with me?
Young Allie: Stay with you? What for? Look at us, we're already fightin'
Young Noah: Well that's what we do, we fight... You tell me when I am being an arrogant son of a b**** and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate, then you're back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing.
Young Allie: So what?
Young Noah: So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What's it look like? If it's with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again. If I thought that's what you really wanted. But don't you take the easy way out.
Young Allie: What easy way? There is no easy way, no matter what I do, somebody gets hurt.
Young Noah: Would you stop thinking about what everyone wants? Stop thinking about what I want, what he wants, what your parents want. What do YOU want? What do you WANT?
Young Allie: It's not that simple.
Young Noah: What... do... you... want? Whaddaya want?
Young Allie: I have to go now.

- The Notebook
Damaged people are dangerous because they know they can survive.

KEEP THE POSITIVE THOUGHTS COMING

At times the world can seem an unfriendly and sinister place. But believe us when we say that there is much more good in it than bad. All you have to do is look hard enough. And what might seem to be a series of unfortunate events may, in fact, be the first steps of a journey.

FOR YOU...

I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me. But it's hard to stay mad when there's so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once...and it's too much. My heart fills up like a balloon that's about to burst. And then I remember... to relax, and not try to hold on to it. And then it flows through me like rain. And I can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life. You have no idea what I'm talking about, I'm sure. Don't worry... you will someday.

Tuesday 1 September 2009

MY SWEET ESCAPE towards reality

Todays event:m 1 booking yehey more to come lord. I'm back on track...
being out there is my status. hehehhe. Had a very long trip on my way to work today. I had recieved a very troubled text message, so my mind was so overwhelmed, i even got off the bus ealier than where I was suppose to hehehe so I had to take a cab to get to the office. But well that's okey thank you lord for a safety trip. Absent minded cannot happen again. Texted with Mael and Hazel today, and even chatted through ym with Hazel. thank you supportive friends. Mael be strong always and remember I am here for you no matter what happens. And same to you Hazel, i miss being with you every afternoon while my kids are taking their naps hehhehe. I miss our sessions...huhuhuhu. anyways thanks for believing in me that I can do this and I can be strong for myself. youøre so cool....




you've been running through my mind all day long
it's been hard
and it's been a big step for me to take this journey
but here I am in this big big city
enjoying the life I could never have when I'm with you
Enjoying the time where I should have never given you.
I am happier because of you,
because you've hurt me continuosly
because you made me start a better life
you made me stronger by breaking my heart
i give all the thanks to you
I can smile again
I am no longer afraid,
I am ME....

what not to do after a break up???

1. After a Break Up Don't: Remain 'Just Friends'

Accepting that your relationship is over is the very first step after a break up, and without this realization you'll be hard pressed to move on. Now is the time for renewal, not hopes for reconciliation. Sure, there may be a slight chance the two of you will get back together, but even the most astute 'get your ex back' manuals start with this first simple step: take a break.

Give yourself some time to mourn your loss. Get to know yourself as a single person. Toe your lines of independence and find out what makes you happy again. Staying friends with your ex will only prolong the pain. Think of any interaction with your ex like an addiction -- every single time you succumb, it'll be that much harder to refuse later.
2. After a Break Up Don't: Keep Remnants of the Relationship Lying Around

There are quite a few things considered 'remnants' of a relationship, including photos, cutesy trinkets, mementos, clothing, and even food. After a break up, especially if the two of you have children together, it can be challenging to remove all of these items from your home. Luckily that's not what I am asking you to do. Instead, fill a box with whatever items you feel will be necessary at some point in time in the future but still remind you strongly of your ex, and then put that box in a private, out-of-the way place for the time being. There will be more than enough reminders on a day-to-day basis of your ex's just because of how the human mind works. You won't need any extra help to add fuel to the break up fire.
3. After a Break Up Don't: Deny Negative Emotions That Surface

There is no doubt that you will feel strong emotions after a break up, such as loneliness, anger, fear, shame, uncertainty, humiliation, sadness, despair and jealousy. For many, these feelings will also surface physically, like crying or feeling like your heart is breaking.

Not only are these 'negative' emotions healthy, but they are important to feel in order to remain healthy. Sure, they seem miserable and probably don't make you feel better in the moment, but allowing yourself time to grieve is an important part of healing after a breakup. Plus, a scientific study undertaken in 1980 by Margaret Crepeau found that frequent criers are healthier people. So don't be afraid to comfort yourself via expressing your negative emotions.
4. After a Break Up Don't: Self-Medicate

If there were issues related to addictions, abuse, mental health (i.e. depression), or self-mutilation prior to your break up, please seek out professional help to assist with your specialized needs. (See: How Do I Find a Therapist?) The same goes for those finding themselves using drugs, alcohol, sex, cutting, or any other harmful self-medicating behaviors to cope with the pain after a break up. And if you feel the need to hurt yourself or someone else, please call a crisis hotline immediately.
5. After a Break Up Don't: Stop Taking Care of Yourself

Most people's basic needs are the same: food, sleep and protection from the elements (i.e. shelter and food). During a particularly difficult break up, some people aren't able to manage even these simple tasks -- which is understandable, although not acceptable.

If you cannot be your own best friend right now, ask for help. Talk to your friends, family, a counselor and/or loved ones and let them know you may need a bit of extra support in the next little while. Additionally, create a break up action plan to post in key places, such as on your fridge or hidden away in your desk at work. That way you'll have no only have people checking out for you, but you'll also have created a foolproof list of things that make you happy to refer to.